New Computer. New Direction.

Well, the laptop that my mom purchased for me when I graduated from high school in 2004 finally bit the dust. It has been a few years coming. For a while, I had to prop pillows, remote controls, books, etc underneath the power cord to keep it turned on. One day, it miraculously cured itself. But, today, when I tried to turn it on to do some work for school, it said, "No. Absolutely not. I will not turn on." Only after Melissa and I propped the power cord up just right with the handle of a staple gun did it decide to turn on. Le sigh... I knew it was coming, but I was just hoping it would last longer. Oh well. I went to Best Buy this afternoon, talked to a very nice girl there named Kelly, and walked out about an hour later with a new laptop. Despite the fact that I really am poor now, I am excited about this new laptop. I think it kind of represents a new start for me. I have decided on the career I want to pursue--nursing. I have decided to find a new full-time job as soon as possible. I think this new year is a new start for me in many areas of my life. And I am excited to take them all head on. Full force. And do the very best I can to succeed in all of those areas.

However, I now face the daunting task of transferring important files from my old laptop to my new laptop. For some reason, that always proves to be a very arduous task. I will be tackling that tomorrow--Sunday--along with some coursework for two of my online classes. Fun.

My one class that is actually on campus--Medieval Humanities--has group presentations due throughout the semester. My group has been assigned the topic of Life on a Feudal Manor. It was actually my first choice. It sounded the most interesting to me. (My second choice was Knights and the Chivalric Code.) Anyway, I have taken up the post of "Coordinator" for my group. I think I like this position. I find it semi-easy to delegate and make sure things are going on schedule. Sure, someone may end up not liking me because I am making sure that everyone in the group stays on schedule and on task; but, you know what? This is everyone's grade, and I will not fail because YOU won't do what you said you would. Wow. Okay. Next.

My roommate, Melissa, has that Blockbuster service where they send you dvd's off of a queue that you create online... A few months ago, we started watching the tv series, Grey's Anatomy. We love it. We quote it regularly in our house. --The reason I bring this up is because at the beginning and end of each episode there is a voice over by one of the characters. It is usually something that makes you think. It strikes a chord of some sort with you in your own life. That phrase is then acted out in various situations for the next forty minutes, and it leaves you thinking about how it applies to your life. We finished the entire series at the beginning of this year. There is one voice over though that I still remember vividly. I think it might be my favorite voice over from the show...

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken. It wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But, as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want. "

Fortunately, I feel like I have finally figured out what I want for myself--at least for now. What I want the most right now is to get my nursing degree. That's what I desire. The other stuff, right now, is a distraction. I don't need distractions. I have had enough of those to last me a little while.
What are your thoughts on that voice over quote???